grow - aneta jones
7th February 2011 by MORE
Aneta Jones is 21 years old and attends Manukau Central Corps in Auckland, New Zealand. Written below is her story from Kingdom Come.
Where are you Lord? If I seek you am I not meant to find you? Where are you hiding Lord? Or is it me? You wouldn't hide from me? Your Word says, "You will never leave me nor forsake me". So then it's me that's the problem ... I can't find my creator. I am but a lonely sheep who cannot hear the voice of my shepherd! I am unworthy, I've failed to live up to the holy woman of Christ that I am meant to be. I am to be perfect in your sight Lord, but I have failed.
With these thoughts going through my mind, I ended up missing half a day as I lay hopelessly on my bed, crying into my pillow. Arrows of the enemy continued to fire at me – hit after hit I became weaker and consumed by the idea that I was unable to receive the love of Christ.
No. The battle has already been won when Christ stretched out his arms on the cross and died for my sins – the battle was won!!!! Without strength of my own, I got up and made my way to the second workshop of the day. My spirits were low, but God was there amongst everything I was feeling, whether I knew it or not, he was there!
At that workshop, I was encouraged to realise that I am a "Kid of the King" and that he loves me! This was only the start of God lifting me up, building my faith and strengthening my spirit.
The Sunday after Kingdom Come, our church went to Hillsong City Church in Sydney where an amazing message was preached about God's unfailing love and also about all the things I was trying to live up to. Instead of focusing my eyes on Jesus, I had been focusing on being a holy and perfect woman of Christ. I'd had this big to-do list on how I should be, but I naturally failed to be all those things. By failing to achieve the unachievable perfection goal that I had set myself, I felt that I was failing both God and myself.
But here I was reminded and reassured that God LOVES me for who I am, will love me how I am, will take me as I am and meet me where I am! From that realisation, I have been set free from the enemy's whisper of being unworthy of God's love and I am now continuing to serve the Lord with faith, hope and love ... as well all know, the greatest of these is love and this love that comes from our creator is greater that any love we could imagine possible – greater than our minds can fathom.
We serve a God who is love, a God who cares for us and what we are going through. A God who will fight for you and wants a relationship with you! Even in the midst of life's downhill rollercoaster, his plans are to prosper us and he will protect and provide for you and me. The love of the Lord is unfailing and unconditional and for that, I am truly grateful! Praise his Mighty name!
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Comments
love it...thanks for your honesty Aneta :) Such true words about the character of God
Oh come on! Awesome testimony and encouragement that we are rescued from darkness in our lives and continued to be resuced by our righteous Jesus! Love hearing what continues to transform your life!
Aneta, what a beautifully genuine testimony from a beautiful woman. Thanks so much for sharing this.
Awesome!! you continue to inspire me Aneta. Love ya and bless ya! :)
wow Aneta, for years youve been inspiring me , and tonight when I needed God ,i sought a "dose of Aneta " via the internet & I connected to Him through you. Isnt He amazing? Miss you girl !!!!