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18th January 2010 by Julia Hosking

Before Gospel Arts Camp (GAC), I believed in God, but I didn't feel his presence or anything. It was like I believed in something that wasn't there. Having a non-Christian family didn't really help either. I was struggling to believe that there even was a God. I found it hard going to church and was struggling with my belief, so I decided to go to GAC.

On the Wednesday night in worship, Shandri Brown was preaching. I heard her say: ‘if you have a small God, or a God that you can't find, just come up and pray'. At first, I was struggling to get up but then all of a sudden I started getting the shakes and really wanted to be up there.

Out of nowhere, I felt this push in me like some hand was pushing me towards the front. It was like I was meant to be up there. As I was at the front, I fell to my knees, and then a leader prayed for me.

I didn't feel anything so I went to my friends; we were all hugging and praying for each other. A friend came up saying that she was free from all her voices. From then on I felt God within me. By her saying that, it made me feel that I was free, and all my sins just washed away. I cried and cried and I had mixed emotions.

Since then I have changed dramatically. I'm happier, making new friends and for once, I'm being myself!

For years I've struggled to be myself, hiding who I really was. All I want to say is: keep being yourself. It is fantastic, and if people don't see that, then you'll find out who your true friends really are.

I look forward to the future that God has planned for me!