grow- anita moyes

12th October 2009 by Julia Hosking

I am happy to share this because many people are scared or don't know what to do, so I hope that this helps.

When I was nine years old I was sexually abused. Dealing with that situation is really hard, so I kept it inside and hoped it would go away. It didn't work.

It wasn't until I was in year 10 I had the courage to tell my pastor. I hadn't told anyone as I kept thinking: What will they think of me? Will they believe me? Will they look at me differently? But it was great, I had told someone.

For years I continued to keep it submerged, I would ignore it; I wouldn't let it get to me. It wasn't until last year I felt I needed to get rid of this trauma. I was 22, and holding it in for that long isn't a good idea.

The help of Jesus

Knowing Jesus was on my side, I went to the police, and I reported the sexual abuse. After taking my statement, I walked out relieved I had taken the step towards a free life.

I hadn't told anyone I was going to the police, so I went in by myself. But the whole time I was praying "God help me, God help me".

Throughout this experience I have had great support from my friends, family and my church. Prayer has been especially helpful; it was great to be able to tell a few friends I trusted and ask them for prayer.

Now I can say I have courage I didn't think I had, freedom I never thought I would get and a great life to look forward to. When all of this is over, there will be no more bondage and no more weight to carry around.

Promises of God

If you have experienced abuse and you're still carrying it around, I encourage you to let it go, and report it. The police won't go any further unless you want them to.

I know it's not easy, even letting Jesus help me was hard work! But I was reminded of his promises; that I am fearfully and wonderfully made, and that he didn't intend for this to happen but will bring it for good not for evil. In my counselling sessions I had to think of where Jesus was in the situation. I saw him looking over me, crying.

I wouldn't be the person I am now if I didn't know Jesus, my life would be a mess, and I certainly wouldn't have come this far. But I can now help others who have been abused. I can tell them about Jesus, that I know what it's like, and that it does get better. Through it all I was reminded that God was with me. I wouldn't have been able to get this far without him. My life is great at the moment and I'm looking forward to it more than ever. :)

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Neil Clanfield

October 13, 2009 at 12:55pm

Thanks for being brave enough to share your story.... I know it will help many people who have gone through similiar experiences. God bless you! PS Great having you on the Project 1:8 mission team to Sth Africa.

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Mukisa Patrick

October 13, 2009 at 10:49pm

Praise God for your bravity to say out such a situation. Many have denied it and keep to themselves. God is gonna change many and you as an individual.

God bless you richly.

Patrick
Uganda.

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Anita

October 14, 2009 at 5:29pm

thanks.... thats ok... i dont mind sharing it now...

since publishing the guy has been sentenced and has a good behaviour bond against his name... he is on the sex offenders list for 8 years as well...

im quite happy about that and i dont have to worry about anything!!!

God is great :)

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